That’s Life.

So you think it’s okay to come back now? To call me up one day after all the bullshit I’ve gone through and I’m going to want you back? You fucked up and I’m done. I’ve been done since the day you chose a new girl over me. So here’s a big fuck you to the tears I cried, and the nights I spent, and most of all the days I wasted being heartbroken over someone who’s too inconsiderate to pick up the pieces. Have a nice life, and please leave me the fuck alone.

Sincerely,

Princess

Goodbye.

They say your first love is the sweetest, but your first cut is the deepest.

It’s hard to think back on all the things we shared throughout our relationship, but I take a second glance into my memory and begin to realize that I did so much to please you and make you happy that I lost my own happiness somewhere along the way. When was it my turn to get the cute love notes to brighten my day or the lunches on school days when I wanted something from home, or the cute text messages to let me know you loved me? You say you gave me the world but that is a tiny spec compared to the universe I built for you with hopes, dreams, and heart beats. I gave you all I could give until their was nothing left but my footsteps echoing off the cold brick walls as I walked away. No more sympathy for the cold heart you possess. I wish you were healthy in mind and in body but I’ve come to the realization that you are sick, and no matter how much I push and how much I try I can never heal the broken heart that you’ve continued to cut deeper. What you have yet to realize is what you lost; a girl who could have shown you the purest love known to man, a soul ready for it’s mate, a pure heart reaching for you. You walked away and when I looked back to see if you would chase me you were already too far away to see. You left a girl broken and scarred but she is alot stronger than you think. So when you realize that this new girl you now have taken interest in will never rub your back until you fall asleep, or buy you chicken caesar salad with broccoli cheddar soup and sweet tea when you’ve had the roughest of days, or leave candy and a sweet note on your doorstep after your grandma passed because she loved her too, or give you space and continue to love you after you break her heart again and again and again. This love we worked so hard to build has reached it’s end and by what you’ve said the last few days I will move on. I have no other options and I WILL move on this time. You had your chance to run back to me even when I was letting go yet you gave that up for a girl you barely know. I hope this was worth a future, a bestfriend, a soulmate… Goodbye My Prince.

I had a dream I stood beneath an orange sky…

Young, Dumb and In Love.

Sometimes I sit back and think about all the things of done for you, all the candy I’ve bought when you had a bad day or the meals after school so you wouldn’t go hungry and would have energy for a long rehearsal, I think about the countless times I have been here even with other girls in the picture just because I wanted to make sure you were okay. People say you can’t buy love but every item or morsel of food I bought you was strictly  because I truly live to see your smile even for an instant and knowing that I could put just the slightest one upon your face, well that right their to me is priceless. I would give my life for you, I would sacrifice anything, I honestly believe that.

Lately things haven’t been the same as they once were. We’ve drifted and you have learned to love others.. Yet I’m still here… afraid to leave the soul I once felt apart of, the person I invested my feelings in, the first boy I’ve ever truly loved and sacrificed for. Why is it so hard to leave you? Why am I stuck in this rut and just cant seem to find my footing to pull myself out..

But please know I will always love you…

Strife.

Do you ever feel like your giving up on something or someone and your fighting your own thoughts constantly? Lately my head has been a constant battle on whether or not you have given up on this relationship or let alone even want me. I feel alone. You  can’t put your stubbornness aside for two seconds just to look back at the girl you’ve been dragging along with you in the dirt for almost a month now. I have a heart, I have feelings. I’m not some mindless obsessive girl you’ve dealt with before, when I am faced with hurt I detach and it’s very hard for me to ever regain those feelings I push away. So why me? Why are you pushing away the one person on this planet who hasn’t left, or given up? Can’t you see what’s in front of you? Or is it really just to late?….